Big Plans

I want to heal the world. Best start with myself. Insurmountable task that lay before me. Which one? I want to feel the love. Created first in myself. Lost within years of self loathing. Can it be done? I want to forgive the past. For it is not myself. Situations do not define who I am. Play the pun. I want to see the difference. To look and see my Self. Instead of flaws & imperfections not there. That’d be…

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Small Thoughts

Tired. Lonely. Longing to show someone my wounds. Afraid. Aware of the feelings. Cannot escape them. Self loathing. Finding things to dislike. Must be punished. For what? Why all of this nonsense? So needless. It’s silly. But real. To me. In my head. Pounding head. Seems endless these days. I close my eyes for relief. It escapes me. I can hear my Self. Trying to love me. So afraid. Undeserving. Lonely. What a precious child. Someone should hug her. Give…

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Words on Love

Not my own words but rather a collection of thoughts that I feel close to…. Truly loving another means letting go of all expectations and full acceptance even celebration of another’s personhood. – K. Casey I love you Not for what you are But for what I am When I am with you. If you have love in your life it can make up for a great many things you lack. If you don’t have it, no matter what else…

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Living Regret

Inside myself I am empty Filled with want, need and greed Outside myself I am growing Constantly being fufilled Inside myself I am ugly Full of hate, resentment and torture Outside myself you think I am beautiful A vision of loveliness that can be seen from afar Inside myself I am angry For the things the lesser endure Outside myself I am angry Aft myself for not doing more So show me a way to bring the outside in To…

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A Glimmer of hope

I want to love you as you ought to be loved If I did our love would be grand Something inside me is dead, my love You have stirred it with the touch of your hand. I want to be loved as I see others are loved With eternity seeming but moments away Some things are sacred and scarred by roughness My trust has been given but it is hard to convince it to stay. I see you as no…

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Words to Live By

Turn off the TV And plant a garden Get off the couch And play a game Don’t hit snooze Drink a tea on the porch Don’t do it tomorrow Start today & take aim Life is not work Find joy in what you do Eat food you enjoy Let food inspire you Take a deep breath And now slowly exhale Tell the truth Be mindful of the task at hand Watch your children Listen to the breeze Take a walk…

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