Through the Darkness

Helplessness

Sometimes I get to wondering how I can win this fight. When all I seem to gain from it all is another sleepless night. I am so ingrained in myself. It’s a wonder I learn at all. For the sake of my mental health. Please pick me up should I fall.

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Big Plans

I want to heal the world. Best start with myself. Insurmountable task that lay before me. Which one? I want to feel the love. Created first in myself. Lost within years of self loathing. Can it be done? I want to forgive the past. For it is not myself. Situations do not define who I am. Play the pun. I want to see the difference. To look and see my Self. Instead of flaws & imperfections not there. That’d be…

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Small Thoughts

Tired. Lonely. Longing to show someone my wounds. Afraid. Aware of the feelings. Cannot escape them. Self loathing. Finding things to dislike. Must be punished. For what? Why all of this nonsense? So needless. It’s silly. But real. To me. In my head. Pounding head. Seems endless these days. I close my eyes for relief. It escapes me. I can hear my Self. Trying to love me. So afraid. Undeserving. Lonely. What a precious child. Someone should hug her. Give…

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Living Regret

Inside myself I am empty Filled with want, need and greed Outside myself I am growing Constantly being fufilled Inside myself I am ugly Full of hate, resentment and torture Outside myself you think I am beautiful A vision of loveliness that can be seen from afar Inside myself I am angry For the things the lesser endure Outside myself I am angry Aft myself for not doing more So show me a way to bring the outside in To…

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Into the light

Light from Darkness Life for Death Reason behind Madness Read my Sadness Of a life through a life. Seeing patterns in a marvelous maze Suffocating beneath this thick black haze Inside myself you can never see This hard black hate inside of me Poison this Body Penetrate this Beast Watching from closed doors Wait for ME. I can see a Light inside of here…. I can see a Light inside of here…. I can see a Light inside of here….…

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Getting a Grip.

I am so incredibly lost What the hell am I doing? What the fuck was I thinking Hope I make it out alright Sucking the life. Breathing the pain. I am such a fucking joke Pathetic even to me. Insufferable wench. Honesty is dark at best. Truth brings light that is blinding Everything you hate I am. Nothing that is pure. Pain is Beauty. Beauty is Pain. I am beautiful in my eyes Bleeding and torn Cracks in the sidewalk…

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~ Ansel Adams"

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