Dreaming, discussing and doing.

I seem to spend most of my time on the first, more and more on the second and the least on the third. I think I’d like to aim for a little more equal proportions in life. One of the more common themes that comes up for me in my dreams is city or country. Which path do I want to follow? And, more importantly, how do I decide?

One one hand I want to be in the city where I can be in touch with a large population of people. I can influence their ideas and feed the idea of living more consciously and making intentional choices. Work with members of my community to help them see a different way of life.

On the other hand so much of what I want to see has to start somewhere. If I want to see it happen I’ve got to build it. Or better yet I’ve got to work with like minded individuals to build it. An over sized hobby farm with good pasture management and some serious permaculture is a dream that I have held for a long time. As long as I have been dreaming I’ve been dreaming of a farm.

It is more along the lines of social responsibility and wanting to create the most change and affect the most people which makes me want to stay in the city. More and more however I am realizing that I am not truly doing what I want to be doing here in the city. Too much of my time and energy is going towards paying bills. So then, I begin to wonder how can I get away from that? How can I pay the bills and still be building? Isn’t that the magic question? So easily sidetracked by ideas we dreamers are. I wonder how the doers manage with that.